Tumbling like waves against the shore
But I must hold them back.
These are the things I cannot write.
The fear
and the doubt
and the wondering why.
How did I get here?
Where do I go now?
The pain
and the hurt
and the sense of betrayal.
How could you do this to me?
Am I so easy to forget?
The anger
and the frustration
and the desire to scream out loud.
What are you doing?
Why are you such a bitch?
The failures
and the misery
and the cold hard truth.
Why can't I do this?
How can I make things right?
All the inner turmoil,
the ugliness
that no one must ever see.
These are all the things I cannot write.
It is amazing what can be going on inside our heads without those around us knowing. I hope this has helped you find some peace.
ReplyDeleteIt is amazing. Fortunately, I do have many things I can write about. That is probably the best part of this challenge. It forces me to concentrate on the things that do bring me peace.
DeleteI feel your pain. There are things I can't write about either. It's tough managing all that inside you. I hope this was enough for today.
ReplyDeleteIt was. I hope you find a way to write about the things you can't right about, too.
DeleteI'd admire your constructive way to write about what you cannot write about. Some believe writing can be cathartic. Hope this outlet gives you just a little peace.
ReplyDelete-Lanny
Thank you. I do believe writing is cathartic, at least it is for me. So, yes, just writing this much was helpful.
DeleteAside from the content, which is certainly, more true than I am comfortable with - did I write this? - aside from that content, I also liked how you "grew" the words, from small to large - timid to loud. Nicely done.
ReplyDeleteThank you. It is nice to know that I am not alone in these feelings!
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